This is one beautiful song. Only a few days ago i discovered that it was sung by Brooke Fraser. Her songs are beautiful, hope giving and with a lot of depth :) .

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=vdq9Q8wJdjc


God bless

Just a day.

SO, my last exams scheduled on Saturday. I would ve been extremely happy and elated if my last exam hadnt been COMPUTER :(. Java is just pages and pages of technical terms and statements(if am wrong, its cause am still reading about it!). I ve got to clean the entire house :( and then gotta pay the electricity bill and buy stuff for mom and dad. Got to get some meat for dan. And all this in 64 hours! yikes!......................

Sun, heat and humidity are back again. With extra effect to compensate their precious time taken by the rain, thunder and wind!..... Inspite of the numerous things i ve to do, here I am blogging away!.

Just 2 desks away from me is seated my 'friend'. Well, wonder the quotes, I would call him my ex-friend or something like that. Its amazing how one could just stare you for a minute and then glance away to carry on with their work, especially after knowing the person pretty well.

Thats how people are i guess, we cant expect to world to be friendly.

Save our trees

Valencia Trees in danger, Mangalore.

Here are some snaps of the friendly protest against the cutting down of the trees from Father Mullers Hospital till Jeppu Cemetary.

S.M.I.L.E

You know, it does a little good to the world, if thou shalest just SMILE :) .

Share your smile... :)

Back to Broke!

Its Augest end already!! Time literally zoomz past us. And something i yet am to learn is money management!!.. Just the other week i saw my bank balance having rs 164. *sigh* Though this month ( maybe about the 2nd week) I rang up home and asked for a little more cash. And now back to nil balance. And though i just had 2000 with me from the 15th of this month, i blew that money too on CLOTHES:). It was Just toooooo tempting!... Any girl would know what I am talkin about... And my purchase was AMAZING:). I bought a pink off colour(peachish) skirt and a pair of bage shorts from the exhibition going on in Woodlands, opposite Gold Finch, Mangalore. Then i trotted off to Change oppisite Hao Ming, and bought the most fab top for Rs.800( its Sepia=)). Its a white sleevless with flowery patterns on it. And then later, still ran away with temptation to this discount place down Coffee day, Balmatta. And bought a sleevless black and white stripe top =)...

Swine Flu Prevention

1. Respiratory droplets while sneezing and coughing

2. Via fomites - that is particulate matter on hands on which virus ges deposited when you put your hands on mouth when coughing and sneezing; following which one may shake hands or touch furniture/items like computer keyboards etc thus leading the fomite to other persons hand. Now this uninfected person touches his face/nose/lips and infect oneself beacuse of virus sitting there. So do no handshake/hug/kiss and if you do wash hands and stay away from crowds and 2 arm length from infected people

3. Always use hand sanitizers
4. Take a bath once you reach home

The World Health Organisation has reported 44,287 laboratory confirmed cases of influenza A(H1N1) infection from 89 countries as June 17. There have been 180 deaths.

Swine flu has had a tremendous impact on pune, due to large number of foreign students studying. The number of total positive H1N1 infections registered in the city now stands at 118.
This represents the largest chunk of the 172 swine flu infections in the state, which has promulgated the Epidemic Diseases Act in Pune and Satara.
Rattled by the death of the 14-year-old student due to swine flu, people continued to rush to government hospitals to get tested for the virus.

Now collages have been closed down in Chennai as well. Though certain collages still go ahead to continue with their classes inspite of the prominent threat!.








AVOID : Eating out in roadside restaurnts, crowded places[ theaters, pubs,

SWINE FLU SYMPTOMS

The 2009 flu pandemic is a global outbreak of a new strain of a influenza A virus subtype H1N1, officially named the "new H1N1", first identified in April 2009, and commonly called "Swine flu."
Annual influenza epidemics are estimated to affect 5–15% of the global population. Although most cases are mild, this still causes severe illness in 3–5 million people and around 250,000–500,000 deaths worldwide

The U.S. Centers for Disease Control and Prevention (CDC) notes that most cases worldwide are usually mild, and most hospitalizations and deaths have been of persons that also had underlying conditions such as asthma, diabetes, obesity, heart disease, or a weakened immune system.
In an attempt to slow the spread of the illness, a number of countries, especially in Asia, have quarantined airline passengers with flu symptoms, while some are also pre-screening passengers. WHO does not expect to have a full vaccine before the end of 2009, and vaccines available sooner may be limited and given first to healthcare workers, pregnant women, and other higher risk groups. Two or three injections will be required for maximum immunity from both the swine flu and seasonal flu.

Dreams

I ve been having alot of weird and bizzare dreams, so i decided to do some research on em..... so this is all i got...



These are the common dreams which we would tend to have ---->

Common Dream Themes

Naked Dreams

Chase Dreams

Teeth Dreams

Flying Dreams

Falling Dreams

Test Dreams






I'm Naked!"

So you are going about your normal routine - going to work, waiting for the bus, or just walking down the street - when you suddenly realize that you are stark naked. Dreaming that you are completely or partially naked is very common. Nudity symbolizes a variety of things depending on your real life situation.

Becoming mortified at the realization that you are naked in public, reflects your vulnerability or feelings of shamefulness. You may be hiding something and are afraid that others can see right through you. Metaphorically, clothes are a means of concealment. Depending on the type of clothes you wear, you can hide your identity or be someone else. But without them, everything is hanging out for all to see. You are exposed and left without any defenses. Thus your naked dream may be telling you that you are trying to be something that you really are not. Or you are fearful of being ridiculed and disgraced. Such anxieties are elevated especially in situations where you are trying to impress others. Perhaps you are in a new work environment or in a new relationship. You may be expressing fears or apprehension in revealing your true feelings in such situations.

Nudity also symbolizes being caught off guard. Finding yourself naked at work or in a classroom, suggests that you are unprepared for a project at work or school. You may be unprepared in making a well informed decision. With all eyes on you, you fear that some flaw will be brought to public attention. You fear that people will see through your true self and you will be exposed as a fraud or a phony.

Often times, when you realize that you are naked in your dream, no one else seems to notice. Everyone else in the dream is going about their business without giving a second look at your nakedness. If this happens in your dream, then it implies that your fears are unfounded; no one will notice except you. You may be magnifying the situation and making an issue of nothing.

If you dream that you are proud of your nakedness and show no embarrassment or shame, then it symbolizes your unrestricted freedom. You have nothing to hide and are proud of who you are. The dream is about a new sense of honesty, openness, and a carefree nature. Perhaps you are trying to get to the �bare facts�. Alternatively, the dream may be telling you that you are drawing the wrong kind of attention to yourself. You want to get noticed, but are going about it the wrong way.

"I'm Being Chased"

"My Teeth Are Falling"

Dreams that your teeth are falling out are the most common dreams we here at Dream Moods receive. Common dream scenarios include having your teeth crumble in your hands, fall out one by one with just a light tap, grow crooked or rot. Such dreams are not only horrifying and shocking, but often leaves the dreamer with a lasting image of the dream. So what does it mean?

One theory is that dreams about your teeth reflect your anxiety about your appearance and how others perceive you. Sadly, we live in a world where good looks are valued highly and your teeth play an important role in conveying that image. Teeth are used in the game of flirtations, whether it be a dazzling and gleaming smile or affectionate necking. These dreams may stem from a fear of your sexual impotence or the consequences of getting old. Teeth are an important feature of our attractiveness and presentation to others. Everybody worries about how they appear to others. Caring about our appearance is natural and healthy.

Another rationalization for these falling teeth dream may be rooted in your fear of being embarrassed or making a fool of yourself in some specific situation. These dreams are an over-exaggeration of your worries and anxiety.�

Teeth are used to bite, tear, chew and gnaw. In this regard, teeth represent power. And the loss of teeth in your dream may be from a sense of powerlessness. Are you lacking power in some current situation? Perhaps you are having difficulties expressing yourself or getting your point across. You feel frustrated when your voice is not being heard. You may be experiencing feelings of inferiority and a lack of self-confidence in some situation or relationship in your life. This dream is an indication that you need to be more assertive and believe in the value of your own opinion.

In the latest research, it has been shown that women in menopause have frequent dreams about teeth. This may be related to getting older and/or feeling unattractive and less feminine.

Traditionally, it was thought that dreaming that you did not have teeth, represent malnutrition which may be applicable to some dreamers

"I'm Flying"

Flying dreams fall under a category of dreams known as lucid dreaming. Lucid dreams occur when you become aware that you are dreaming. Many dreamers describe the ability to fly in their dreams as an exhilarating, joyful, and liberating experience.

If you are flying with ease and enjoying the scene and landscape below, then it suggests that you are on top of a situation. You have risen above something. It may also mean that you have gained a different perspective on things. Flying dreams and the ability to control your flight is representative of your own personal sense of power.

Having difficulties staying in flight indicates a lack of power in controlling your own circumstances. You may be struggling to stay aloft and stay on course. Things like power lines, trees, or mountains may further obstruct your flight. These barriers represent a particular obstacle or person who is standing in your way in your waking life. You need to identify who or what is hindering you from moving forward. It may also be an indication of a lack of confidence. You need to believe in yourself and not be afraid.

If you are feeling fear when you are flying or that you feel that you are flying too high, then it suggests that you are afraid of challenges and of success.

In reality, we cannot really fly, of course. Thus, such dreams may represent that which is beyond your physical limitations. In your mind, you can be anybody and do anything. Another way of interpreting flying dreams is that these dreams symbolize your strong mind and will. You feel undefeatable and nobody can tell you what you cannot do and accomplish. Undoubtedly these dreams leave you a great sense of freedom.

Malini Ma'am gave me the paper, i sat staring at it. English was very easy till my 12th grade. I remember a study gap for English meant a day to roam around the streets of Kuwait, aimlessly. BUT in collage level English LITERATURE, there is no fooling around. Theres History, criticism, Plays, dramas, sonnets etc. Hmmmmm..... ! I often wondered, why do we need to learn criticism, isnt English supposed to be about some stories or something.

Anyways, i peer at the paper, and jot down a couple of points i know along with a couple of points i made up:). then do my usual 'GET uP AND LEave'. Ok now, 5 down and one more exam to go.
Computer application [theory] is easy for two types of people-- ie,
A) People who just mugg every word off
B) People who know something about the computer and is familiar with every technical term

I DONT mug, i DONT know any technical term. And i dont even have any notes.
So todays agenda
1) Get notes
2) Get notes ASAP
3) READ the notes
4) If have doubts CLEAR ASAP
5) Take a break[a nice long one]
5.1. Go roam around
5.2. Check out for sale :)
5.3. Get someehting HEALTHY to eat
6) Return Home
7) GET NOTES


Actually got nothing planned for today. I wonder how i would be after my computer exam. Relived would be one word, now i can bury my head in my sorrow without thinking of PASSINg. Then ill have to pack everything from the hostel, 2008 was a strange year. Good[real good] and bad[really bad:(] happenings. Now a year in my collage life is done. though it was full of complaints and fussing, i did meet a couple of real good people- Crystal, Sonia, Muthamma, Uju, Nikita Treasa, Milu, Phoeba, Joan, Carrol n Sneha. Yeah its alist! But special list. Then i learnt to study! haha, make priorites, live everyday, be single, accepting life as it is and learning to make the best of it and yes, reconcile with a couple of reall special people and Meeting new ones:)
And Dan is comming on 30th, and kinda excieted to see her. With everything thats been happening, i think it would be ncie to spend time with her, manoj, shaun n others. It is reliving. SO hopeing...

Review of COnfessions of a Shopaholic

Confessions of a Shopaholic (2009)Hollywood has found a new cash cow, though the use of the latter term might get more than a few supposedly chauvinistic critics in trouble. The modern woman, sick of the same old sloppy romcom rationalizations, has decided to go gourmand. Like Veruca Salt in Willy Wonka and the Chocolate Factory, she wants it all and she wants it now. Of course, back in the 1970s, said little girl was considered a brat. Today, she is the reigning glamour queen of conspicuous consumption.
A perfect example of this ideal is Rebecca Bloomwood. The heroine of P.J. Hogan's adaptation of Sophia Kinsella's Confessions of a Shopaholic, this spunky career gal wants a cushy job, a suave boyfriend, an understanding best bud, and an unlimited credit line. And that's just for starters. The only problem is Rebecca (played with real drive by Isla Fisher) is neck-deep in debt. She just can't stop spending. When her job as a writer for a gardening rag falls through, she applies at the nation's number one fashion magazine. Named after its editor, Alette Naylor (Kristin Scott Thomas), the job represents the completion of all our heroine's career goals. Sadly, she has to settle for a gig writing at Successful Saving, a financial magazine. Oh, the irony! Luckily, it's managed by humble British hunk Luke Brandon (Hugh Dancy).
It's clear that without director Hogan, Confessions of a Shopaholic would be intolerable. The man behind Muriel's Wedding and Peter Pan takes what should be a shrill, overly saccharine combination of Legally Blonde and Sex and the City and turns it into a likable, if ultimately lightweight romp. Fisher is like that lonely little puppy in the pet store window. She whimpers and whelps, wags her cute little tail and puts on the "adopt me" face better than a barnyard full of Marleys. By the movie's end, you can't help but identify with her anguish and relish in her joy. The script also does a wonderful job of explaining the character's compulsion to buy. During a scene with a support group, her speech is so inspiring she sends her fellow shopaholics into complete relapse.
But it's a shame that so much of Confessions falls flat. Fisher may be a gifted physical comedienne, but the slapstick here is stiff and unimaginative. Even worse, her wide-eyed, whimsical look at everything around her grows grating at times. Apparently, Rebecca is one of the few people in the world that can reduce even the most complex problem down to a shoe analogy. Supporting this sporadic entertainment are lost-in-the-trenches talents like Thomas, Dancy, and John Lithgow (as a far-thinking publisher), plus John Goodman and Joan Cusack as Rebecca's regressive parents. They attempt to add sparkle to a movie already drenched in far too many unrealistic narrative rhinestones.
Yet just like that cute-as-a-button mutt you can't pass up, Confessions of a Shopaholic eventually steals your heart, though you feel incredibly guilty for buying into the pap, and recognize almost immediately when the narrative starts spilling over into full-blown manipulation. There are several subplots (the wedding of Rebecca's whiny friend; the doltish debt collector haunting our heroine's every step) that seem lifted out of a third-rate cable sitcom. At other moments, Hogan drops the dopiness and actually finds some empathy and humor.
In the contemporary realm of today's self-described superwomen, Rebecca Bloomwood is viewed as a role model. In the film, her fashion-centric financial column is celebrated for having the ability to connect with the otherwise clueless masses. Confessions of a Shopaholic can be praised for a similarly-styled stunt. It makes even the most cynical film fan forget its flaws and accept its minor pleasures.
— BILL GIBRON

One of those days!

Sometimes you just feel like the whole world is just out there, and you are HERE. Though what i feel exactly right now, i actually cant pinpoint it. Though we dont want to complain about life, and tell ourselves a billion times to smile and go through it. At the end of the day, you just know, NOTHING changes. Maybe being positive is the answer, or patience. Again i have come to square 1, unhappy about my collage,

Envy, frustration, lonliness and a lot of negative thoughts come pouring into you head. And sometimes it just sucks when you cant do ablsoutly nothin but wait!

But seriously, now i feel my life has been this pattern, of bizzare and strange twists. I have met amazing people in my life... and I am forever thankful to God for them. But i just dont understand, where I am standing now. Is there a sign!? or Am i just IGNORING THE SIGN!

I feel like a loser! A real one. You sometimes see those people, whose mostly got it all! And they crib and cry about being losers and unhappy because they didnt get car or more enjoyment!! ugh!!They should just wake up! Its a tough world out there!! Its even tougher when life is like on a standstill!...

Collage leave it, hostel[ which doesnt even have plug points]! its only recently when i told someone that i dont have plug points in the hostel, i just realized I LIVED ONE YEAR WITHOUT THEM! shit! i cant belive it!!

And when this pattern in you life is there, and though you are moving in faith and patience.... you cant help being scared. If so much has happened, is there worse ahead!?? Is it going to be like this throughout! :(

But thats life, we say that line and wrap eeverythin up. And i guess keep moving. Somehow try to live every moment.... with whatever you got!

But i belive in trying till you die. I do know someone watches me:). I just want a little rest, a lil light!! and the rest i dont know what i want even, which makes everything all the more complicated!!

Tuesday BREAKFAST!

EVERY Tuesday morning, without any compulsion from anyone, i just wake up extra early, so extremely cheerful. Infact i go around waking everyone else in my room for breakfast! Then everyone in their sleepy state gets all set to join me for breakfast in the mess hall. As i walk in a dreamy cheery state, the suns just peekin out, the air so fresh etc. Then suddenly when we approach the mess hall. THATS when it strikes me, its TUESDAY, and that means IDILLY!!![hope its correctly spelled].

This is when, i hear the annoying horn, by some impatient bus driver on the streets and i remember. ITs IDILLY and i am in MANGALORE.

OK, idillys are supposed to be soft[ dont ask me what its made up of, ive nt a CLUE!]. Initially the idillies here were hard or rough. As it is, i HATE idillies, and to top it off its made like this. But its really depressing. And slowly, though i cant exactly understand why, i just wake up automatically, all set for a nutrional breakfast, right on a TUESDAY! And as the elation got sucked out of us, we fetched our plates for our food and selected our idillies very carefully[the modest lookin ones]. Then we trod back into our seats. And as i stare into my plate, touching the idilly and watching my finger leave its mark on its soggy surface, i sigh. Just so that i dont have to hear my stomach curse me throughout the day, i gobble 2 idillies.

As we can all see in the picture below, the big utensil that provides us with our tuesday uncooked BREAD. But they at the mess, tried so genuinely to not make the idillies dry, rough etc, that now its so soggy. I wonder if its made out of some paste.!

The funny and weird part is that i wake up like this only on TUESDAY
So now, whenever i wake up all fresh and lively, everyone goes like, oh divabe's up, lets just all go back to bed and chuck BREAKFAST.

But i know, they say living in the hostel is hard and that the food is going to be so bad[wonder why i still havent lost weight:(] and all that. Maybe its all about adjustment. Actually quite true, now whenever i go back home, i actually gobble everything in my plate. And even i have cut out on take aways and stick to just plain good ol home made food! Three cheers to mum:).....I guess this is how we learn to appreciate some parts of life.:)

GOD bless....

Part deux

Now its going to be 1.30, and ill have to run to the BA block for my psychology class. Somehow mam always feels i come really late. She thinks i dont study well or i bunk class so i can run to the hostel and SLEEP. [ oh what joy!]....


SO yesterday, i tremble and enter the hostel, but GOD s GRACE alls well :)......
Even Muthu's reaction was quite surpriseing. When i entered my room, i could see her readin archie comics, and she dint even look up. Even i just shook my head and walked off. Later she came to me and spoke with a maturity that really surprised me. Now i think i even have a huge amount of respect for her.

Now bell rang, got to run, think of an excuse on the way...and revise for my test all at the same time...... this is tiring :)

A day in my llife.

Sometimes we do things just at the spur of the moment, not thinking of whats actually going to happen next. Then later when our senses kick back in, we feel the tension and as we wait and see if your actions are going to dig your grave.

Today i bunked classes, not something new, but today iam just not in the hostel sleeping away or gossiping away. Iam at my friends place. I have to get back into the hostel, unnoticed.!! Here I am with my friend, whos got this bad case of hangover{ not excluding myself:)}. So that explains why i cant bve back into the hostel. And my dearest dearest warden [sarcasam!!], would gladly kick me out. I wonder why she hasnt done it before anyway. Not only have I come in late more than thrice [ WHICH IS ONE OF THE CARDINAL SINS IN THE HOSTEL], then walking round in the LADIES hostel in shorts[ i dont geettt ittt!!], and last but neverthless the least, ma chambre[room]:).
Any of my roomies/cousins/family/friends can be witnesses to the horrid state of my room. I think i shall post up a picture real soon. I have to push the excess stuff on my bed and sleep. Things lieng on my bed range from clothes, money, cosmetics, bags to pens pencils, punchin machines, staplers etc.
SIGH.... Its not really nice to come and see a MESS everyday, especially when life alredy is VERY MESSED. But i like the way how Joan called me optimistic [ tho i am not really]. So there, i shall make an effort to be VERY optimistic. And thats when one day, all my anger winded me up to clean the room with such josh! I did manage to get rid of lots of dirt and things lieng down. Then i put the new rug i bought from Big Bazaar[RS.39]. and it did look nice, i was quite pleased. And i put on that air of haaa! i can do it. My roomies just watched me clean it. I know that they expect it to go back to normal MESSY tomorrow or day after. Sadly, they were right. BUt atleast the down part was cleaner. Phoeba told me i needed therapy[shes cute tho :)].
It hurts, but today when i get back into the hostel, i am going to kick back into cleanin it with the josh. I know speech is going to be less today, as all will be mad/upset/annoyed with me.[ i did something i cantt telll :)]
Its going to be hard to face them. It aint easy. Especially Crystal and Muthu. I would really hate the look Muthu would give me. OK, shes right. But her looks really bug me. That look of 'you SINNER' look......
OK i got no explanations, no excuses. Just hopeing and Prayin that everything goes well. I shall soon see. Its just i hate to face them. Arghhh! But i have to face it. Nikki said she would come and see me at 4. And we shall enter togehter. mAYB Crystels reaction would even make me cry. But i shall be strong and put a smile on. They would think again that she doesnt care or look how shameless she is. Anways lets see.!