A day in my llife.

Sometimes we do things just at the spur of the moment, not thinking of whats actually going to happen next. Then later when our senses kick back in, we feel the tension and as we wait and see if your actions are going to dig your grave.

Today i bunked classes, not something new, but today iam just not in the hostel sleeping away or gossiping away. Iam at my friends place. I have to get back into the hostel, unnoticed.!! Here I am with my friend, whos got this bad case of hangover{ not excluding myself:)}. So that explains why i cant bve back into the hostel. And my dearest dearest warden [sarcasam!!], would gladly kick me out. I wonder why she hasnt done it before anyway. Not only have I come in late more than thrice [ WHICH IS ONE OF THE CARDINAL SINS IN THE HOSTEL], then walking round in the LADIES hostel in shorts[ i dont geettt ittt!!], and last but neverthless the least, ma chambre[room]:).
Any of my roomies/cousins/family/friends can be witnesses to the horrid state of my room. I think i shall post up a picture real soon. I have to push the excess stuff on my bed and sleep. Things lieng on my bed range from clothes, money, cosmetics, bags to pens pencils, punchin machines, staplers etc.
SIGH.... Its not really nice to come and see a MESS everyday, especially when life alredy is VERY MESSED. But i like the way how Joan called me optimistic [ tho i am not really]. So there, i shall make an effort to be VERY optimistic. And thats when one day, all my anger winded me up to clean the room with such josh! I did manage to get rid of lots of dirt and things lieng down. Then i put the new rug i bought from Big Bazaar[RS.39]. and it did look nice, i was quite pleased. And i put on that air of haaa! i can do it. My roomies just watched me clean it. I know that they expect it to go back to normal MESSY tomorrow or day after. Sadly, they were right. BUt atleast the down part was cleaner. Phoeba told me i needed therapy[shes cute tho :)].
It hurts, but today when i get back into the hostel, i am going to kick back into cleanin it with the josh. I know speech is going to be less today, as all will be mad/upset/annoyed with me.[ i did something i cantt telll :)]
Its going to be hard to face them. It aint easy. Especially Crystal and Muthu. I would really hate the look Muthu would give me. OK, shes right. But her looks really bug me. That look of 'you SINNER' look......
OK i got no explanations, no excuses. Just hopeing and Prayin that everything goes well. I shall soon see. Its just i hate to face them. Arghhh! But i have to face it. Nikki said she would come and see me at 4. And we shall enter togehter. mAYB Crystels reaction would even make me cry. But i shall be strong and put a smile on. They would think again that she doesnt care or look how shameless she is. Anways lets see.!